"A cup of Vintage" saves the day!

Carly just helped me win this fabulous chair and is going to come to my house and see what we have room for in our little 3rd bedroom, thinking cot, chest drawers with changer and maybe a little wardrobe but might be tight on the wardrobe as low ceilings beams and REALLY hard lesson learned on stairs and windows when we moved in- NOT MUCH GETS UP or IN!!!!

As much as I ADORE the white company stuff and its all new and "safe" I really NEED to save cash and here is where it can be saved.

WON for £13.50 on Ebay!!!!!- Going to be painted probably dove grey.

Carly also did our 10 yr wedding ann party and will do our baby shower (the TAME one!)

Carly's vintage china in the back and moi and mr CJ and P and H my brother and sister in law <3

She is Great "A Cup Of Vintage" check her out :)

http://www.acupofvintage.co.uk/

I want to buy EVERYTHING from the White Company!!!

Fallen in love with the cot, the chest of drawers and changer top an the rocking chair! I NEED these!!!!

Then there are the clothes and teddies and books and night things oh my!!!

The Noahs Ark range....to die for! The cot bumper....awwwww

I just weakened and bought some books on amazon! The complete flower fairies- it was pretty cheap and the complete Brambly hedge....

John Lewis and The White company will be my main port of call I think... Oh and not on the highstreet.com ha ha....Im also not opposed to second hand or freebies and when we go to the baby show Im going to be ALL over the freebies like a rash!

Prams are a whole world in itself...Stokke have a stand and Quinny at the baby show, Id like to see the Bugaboos again. and Some Silvercross.

Then slings....ones that don't hurt my back....hmmmmm

A lovely poem from my friend "Mouse"

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'Yes.'

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Oh Baby!!! *update on scan*

Right baby CJ can you stop being so naughty!!!

so the Dr reviewed the scan and good baby CJ is measuring big 12+6 instead of 12 +1 which she is.....


BUT....R also has Placenta Praveia (sp) in which it may all be fine at 20 wk scan unless bleeds, pain , OR can cause a lot of issues...grrrrrrr *sighhhhhhh* R has to have a c section anyways(this condition is a 100% c sec) but.....could cause baby CJ to come super early and need steroids to develop her lungs. We don't need baby coming early and NICU unit... Also R could get put on bed rest or on pelvic rest (like she was with the bleed) which is not ideal for her or us.....Oh dear nothing is simple hey!!???

Oh well going to try and not freak for 8 wks!!! And enjoy.....

SO HAPPY!!!!

So we had the scan!!! ALL was well, though for the life of me I couldn't make out a thing! REALLY RUBBISH scan!!! apparently she has fingers and toes and an ickle nose, I will take their word for it! The bleed had completely gone at LAST!!! Baby was a good size and wriggling about doing headstands and somersaults....from what I could make out! I cant wait to do a 4d scan and REALLY see her! Told the masses and world of FACEBOOK :) very pleased with all the happy calls and texts and all that, I don't know anyone (I hope!) who would judge but I was worried....

We are beyond happy and have just celebrated with a curry...always a winner. Its nice to actually SEE my husband as he has been working so late I haven't seen him since sunday night! He better get a payrise for this ;)

Granny CJ is going to knit something ha ha, although I laugh and she has made some fabulous curtains before and I am RUBBISH at sewing etc...

Family all very excited loving the status updates of the nieces <3

anyways a third of the way there now, whoop whoop!!!!

ps you should have seen us on saturday at the shops, EVERY buggy that went past we were checking out! ooohhh the bugaboo bee, oooh the bugaboo chameleon, ooooooh the I candy...ha ha...

OFFICIALLY grown ups now.....

NO its NOT like THIS...

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2439977/Inside-Indias-baby-factory-hundreds-impoverished-Indian-women-paid-5-000-babies-childless-Westerners.html


No.....

In case you are EVEN THINKING...Our situation is NOT like this.

12 WEEKS-the BIG one :)

12 weeks today baby is the size of a PLUM which is nice as "my" Plum is coming to stay on friday...(cousin Plum) We have a scan on Wednesday at about 12pm Chicago time and will announce on Facebook then if all is well....I keep on thinking what to write?! Thinking of this:

"We are SO Excited to say we are having a BABY! After 4 really heartbreaking years it FINALLY seems to be happening, We are going a slightly unusual route and have a lady in USA carrying our little" bun" as my "oven" is broken...(AKA Gestational Surrogacy- look up on google peeps) Our embryo was transferred on 28 july and we are due our little girl on about the 8 april. For anyone interested I have been blogging about it for a few weeks :) "

Right.. whats going on in there?

Baby CJ is the size of a large plum- She is developing reflexes this week, if she was poked she would probably move, she is really fully formed just tiny and needs to mature and develop, she is starting to suck , nerve cells are multiplying rapidly and in her brain synapses are forming furiously. Her face looks very human, her eyes are in front now rather than alien like and evil at the side! Ears are right where they will stay.
R should be a bit less hormonal now ;) Also she may start to look preggers. Im hoping for weekly or bi-weekly bump photos soon..... The doppler in her goody box should arrive this week so it will be fun to hear the heartbeat when we skype. Although there is only a teeny bottle of gel in the box- I HAD bought a huge tube on amazon but left it out of the package...doh! BUT actually in the end it made the parcel a lot cheaper to send!