HOW ITS BEEN SO FAR!

SURROGACY IS MAGICAL..BUT STRESSFUL...ITS A BIT LIKE A ROLLER COASTER...BUT WE HAVE ALOT OF SUPPORT FROM FAMILY AND CLOSE FRIENDS WHICH HELPS ALOT. EVERYONE IS ROOTING FOR US!!! EVERY STEP IS NERVE WRACKING FROM HOW MANY EGGS YOU GOT, TO HOW MANY MADE IT THROUGH THE TOUGH BLASTOCYST CREATING STAGE....BUT JUST WHEN YOU FEEL A BIT OVERWHELMED SOMETHING LOVELY LIKE SEEING A SCAN PIC OR SPEAKING TO R CHEERS YOU UP. R AND I SPEAK ALOT ON EMAIL AND WE SKYPE ABOUT 1X A WEEK, R IS VERY FUNNY SHES ACTUALLY VERY LIKE MY OLDER SISTER. R HAS BEEN GREAT, SHES VERY DOWN TO EARTH BUT ALSO UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME TO BE SO FAR AWAY.SHE IS DOING HER BEST TO INCLUDE US. THE IVF CLINIC ARE ALSO GOOD AT TELLING US WHATS GOING ON. R HAD A BLEED ON SAT NIGHT, WE DID NT KNOW UNTIL MONDAY, I DO WISH WED KNOWN SOONER BUT R DID NT WANT TO WORRY US, I HAVE THOUGH SAID IN FUTURE PLEASE DO LET US KNOW! SHE WAS GREAT THOUGH AND ACTED FAST AND TOOK HERSELF TO A AND E WHERE BABY CJ WAS SAFELY STILL TUCKED AWAY AND HER LITTLE HEART BEATING. THE BLEEDING HAS STOPPED AND I'M HOPEFUL THE SCAN TOMORROW AND JUST OVER 7 WKS WILL BE OK. APPARENTLY ONCE THERE IS A HEARTBEAT THINGS LOOK MUCH BETTER AND I KNOW EVERY WK THAT GOES BY THE MORE LIKELY BABY CJ WILL STAY PUT! I'M LONGING FOR 12 WKS WHEN WE CAN ANNOUNCE TO THE WORLD!!!ITS VERY HARD KEEPING MY TRAP SHUT!!! R IS CRAVING SUSHI (BLEURGH!) SHE CANT EAT IT AS ITS DANGEROUS IN PREGNANCY BUT I HAVE PROMISED A DELIVERY OF SUSHI TO HER WHEN BABY CJ IS HERE!  I WONDER IF BABY CJ WILL ASK FOR THINGS WE LIKE, I'M ALSO GOING TO USE BABY CJ AS AN EXCUSE WHEN I FEEL LIKE SOMETHING TO EAT...BUT HONEY BABYCJ WANTS CURRY ;) CAN YOU HAVE CRAVINGS WHEN YOU ARE NT PREGGERS YOURSELF?! R IS FEELING GREAT, A LITTLE "BLAH" AS SHE SAYS SO IVE SENT HER SOME TIPS ON NAUSEA. ID LOVE TO BE PREGNANT MYSELF (IF IT WOULD NT KILL ME) ID LOVE TO FEEL HER KICKING INSIDE ME...
PEOPLE HAVE ASKED DO I FEEL JEALOUS/WEIRDED OUT? I CAN SAFELY SAY AT THIS TIME NO....I'M JUST SO GRATEFUL TO R FOR DOING THIS AMAZING THING FOR US. YES ITS A LOT OF MONEY BUT WHAT ELSE IS MORE WORTH IT THAN CHILDREN? I DO NT REGRET A PENNY SPENT. I'M JUST SO GLAD TO NOT FEEL SICK!!! I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT BONDING ETC AND THIS IS WHAT I'M HOPING FOR:

DURING PREGNANCY:

TO BE INVOLVED AS MUCH AS POSS...BEING PRESENT AT FACETIME FOR ALL THE SCANS, SPEAKING TO R AS MUCH AS SHES HAPPY WITH,GETTING COPIES OF ALL THE SCANS TO PUT IN MY BABY BOOK ETC....

TO BUY R A DOPPLER SO WE CAN HEAR HER HEARTBEAT WHEN WE SPEAK TO R.

TO BUY R SOME BELLYBUDS WHERE WE RECORD OUR VOICES FOR R TO PLAY BABYCJ SO SHE CAN RECOGNISE OUR VOICES FROM 2O WKS

TO DO 3D/4D SCANS MAYBE A COUPLE WHEN BABYCJ LOOKS MORE HUMANLIKE AND LESS BLOB/ALIENLIKE.

AFTER:

I'M HOPING WE WILL BOTH BE IN THE ROOM BUT WE DON'T KNOW YET...I WOULD LIKE TO CUT THE CORD AND AS SOON AS BABY CJ IS MEDICALLY CLEARED DO SKIN TO SKIN WITH HER. IM ALSO LOOKING INTO INDUCED LACTATION BUT THIS MIGHT BE A BIT HARD/IMPOSSIBLE.

I CANT WAIT TO BUY THINGS...AND DO THE NURSERY. I'M GOING TO BE ALL OVER BUYING SECURITY THINGS...NEUROTIC FIRST TIME MUMMY!
I'M ALSO LOOKING FORWARD TO INTRODUCING BABY CJ TO FRIENDS KIDS. IVE ALREADY DECIDED TO MARRY HER OFF TO MY BEST FRIENDS SON ;)
ALSO OUR NIECES AND NEPHEWS ARE EXCITED AND I CANT WAIT FOR THEM TO HAVE A NEW COUSIN.