CUTTING A REALLY LONG STORY SHORT.....
WE FELT BROODY PRETTY MUCH BANG ON MY 3OTH BDAY IN MAY 2009. IVE ALWAYS LOVED MY NIECES AND NEPHEWS BUT DIDN'T REALLY MIND BEFORE WHETHER WE HAD KIDS OR NOT. BUT SOMETHING CHANGED IN ME I FELT THAT OVERWHELMING NEED TO BE A MUMMY. SO WE TRIED IN AUGUST AND IN SEPTEMBER I GOT PREGNANT! WE WERE JUST THRILLED :) ID HAD SWINE FLU SO STARTED OFF NOT FEELING TOO GREAT BUT FOR 2 WEEKS I HONESTLY FELT AMAZING...THEN THE SICKNESS KICKED IN...NOT MUCH AT FIRST THEN IT BECAME ALL ENCOMPASSING, I WORRIED THE DR WOULD THINK I WAS BEING A WUSS SO DIDN'T GO UNTIL I PRACTICALLY CRAWLED IN. STRAIGHT AWAY I WAS SENT TO HOSPITAL AND PUT ON A DRIP IN A AND E. IT WAS PRETTY HORRENDOUS AS WAS A FRIDAY NIGHT FULL OF DRUNKS AND ROWDY PEOPLE. I KEPT ON ASKING TO GO HOME BUT IT WAS A BIG FAT NO!!! ANYHOW AFTER 3 DAYS I JUST WASN'T GETTING BETTER- I HAD "SEVERE AND LIFE THREATENING HYPEREMESIS GRAVIDARUM", HENCE THE SAD END OF PREGNANCY NO 1.
THE NEXT YR WAS FULL OF COMPLICATIONS FROM THE HG BUT I WAS DETERMINED TO GET STRONG FIND OUT AS MUCH AS POSS ABOUT HG AND HAVE MY BABY...EVENTUALLY AFTER BEING TOLD I NEEDED IVF AS FOR SOME REASON MY FERTILITY HAD DRASTICALLY REDUCED IN LESS THAN 2 YRS I GOT PREGNANT AGAIN AFTER A WHILE OF TRYING...EXCITED BUT SCARED BUT ALSO I FELT PREPARED. HOWEVER AGAIN THIS WAS NOT MEANT TO BE AND THE SAME HAPPENED AGAIN BUT WAY WORSE..THIS TIME I HAD STEROIDS AND THAT DIDNT HELP. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE, GENUINELY. TRULY THE MOST TERRIFYING HORRENDOUS EXPERIENCE I HAVE EVER FELT, IN TRUTH EVEN WORSE THAN MY FATHER DYING -AND I LOVED HIM VERY MUCH.
AGAIN MANY COMPLICATIONS FOLLOWED AND WE KNEW WE WOULD NOT DO THIS AGAIN, IN FACT I WAS TOLD NOT TO. SO WE KNEW ADOPTION OR SURROGACY WAS OUR ONLY OPTION TO BE A FAMILY. WE EXPLORED SO MAY DIFFERENT THINGS, BABY GIRLS FROM CHINA...BUT THERE WERE SO MANY HURDLES, SO IN THE END WE SETTLED FOR SURROGACY, WE CREATED SOME EMBRYOS AT AN AMAZING CLINIC IN CHICAGO WE FOUND A FABULOUS AMAZING SURROGATE AND WE WERE GOOD TO GO! WE HAD OUR PYCH EVALUATIONS, SCREENING, EVERYTHING WAS DONE WITH DUE CARE AND PROFESSIONALLY. MEETING R WAS AMAZING WE TOOK HER KIDS TO THE AQUARIUM IN CHICAGO AND HAD A LOVELY LUNCH, BOTH SETS OF GROWN UPS READY FOR THIS ADVENTURE. WE CHOSE AMERICA AS WE FELT SAFER THERE THAN HERE AS IT IS MUCH MORE LEGALLY RECOGNISED, WE CHOSE IT ALSO AS WHILST SOME OTHER COUNTRIES WHERE WAY CHEAPER LIKE INDIA WE WANTED TO MAKE SURE OUR SURROGATE WASNT "EXPLOITED" AND WAS DOING IT FOR THE RIGHT REASONS.
SO ON JULY 28TH ABOUT 7PM UK TIME WE TRANSFERRED 1 EMBIE TO R. WE WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE BEEN IN CHICAGO BUT WE JUST CANT AFFORD TO FLY OUT ALL THE TIME SO WE SAW IT ON FACETIME, IT WAS PROBABLY THE MOST MOVING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE, WE WERE MADE TO FEEL SO INCLUDED AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL :) SEEING THE LITTLE BALL OF CELLS THAT COULD BE A PERSON WAS FASCINATING AND MADE ME MARVEL AT THE WONDERS OF IVF AND SCIENCE IN GENERAL! THEY SENT A LOVELY CARD TO US WITH THE PICTURE OF THE EMBIE IN WITH "EVERYTHING BIG STARTS OF LITTLE" ON IT. I CANT STOP LOOKING AT IT!!! I WILL POST A PIC WHEN I CAN WORK OUT HOW! IM NOT THE BEST AT COMPUTERS...
ILL ALSO DO A TIME LINE OF "EVENTS" WHEN I CAN WORK OUT HOW!
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